life as is.

Bucket list Summer 2012!

Read 30 books: Hunger Games, Catching Fire, Mocking Jay, The Vow.

Try to bake/cook something new each week.

Eat healthier!

Starbucks and fast food: only once or twice a month!

Get a job an save up to move into the city again!

Catch up on movies!

LSAT ready!

Get back to painting!

Go to a Giants Game!

Go Hiking/Walking twice a month: GG bridge.

Use my Nikon!

Update the History Book for MZ!

Start volunteering again!

Keep up the straight A’s!

Fly somewhere!

Take a road trip!

Dad,

I’m thinking of you today. I hope you’re looking down from heaven, cause I sure do miss you.

Love you.

The problem with Sunnyvale is that there’s no where for me to escape too. Just stuck. :(

Payphone - Maroon 5.

Yeah, I, I know it’s hard to remember
The people we used to be
It’s even harder to picture
That you’re not here next to me
You say it’s too late to make it
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down

I’ve wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I’m paralyzed
Still stuck in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise

I’m at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone
Baby it’s all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairytales are full of sh*t
One more stupid love song I’ll be sick

I wish they knew that all the money in the world won’t bring you back, it doesn’t even make it right.

I just miss you dad, I’d trade anything to have you back. :(

Loss never seems to get any easier. No one should have to feel this much loss in a lifetime, nothing seems right about this.

I can’t believe you’re gone. Feels like it was just yesterday when I first met you. You brought joy into so many lives, you’ll forever be remembered… :(

It’s weird, I’ve wanted you for so long and now I just don’t. Walk out, walk away for me, for you. This is just getting to be too much. I’m tired of finding different ways of telling you why this can’t be, exhausted. Walk away for me, walk away for you.